I know I seem to blog a lot of serious thoughts. That is who I am and also where I am in life. I laugh, smile and find joys in the little gifts we are given, but I also carry a lot of weight that gives me a different outlook. I have always been a passionate person but I would say I am overloaded right now. I have a lot of fear about things, normal fears we all have .... but ironically enough I have become more wreckless. I have almost lost those little warning signals that go off when something is dangerous. (This loss of flashing red lights only applies to me and has no impact on my children.) Either I have become numb or I really need a thrill in my life.
I had my family pictures taken tonight and I would have to say it was bittersweet..... this photo brought me to tears. I have these sweet perfect little children that look to me to show them the ropes on life. Truth is I am just trying to figure it out myself......I miss my flashing red lights.
(*** the writing maybe sound a little more sad than I would like..oops. Im fine guys, just being honest that I must need a thrill ;)
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13 comments:
You aren't the only one brought to tears by that picture. You aren't alone Brooke. I was there too, with nothing but my little man in my arms and my only reason for living. Life has an amazing way of giving you a second chance though and something amazing happens. Hang in there, your's will come.
Oh, and the flashing lights come back too :)
Brooke,
You have always had the answer but only you can turn the key.
Love,
Dad
I love you..
First off, beautiful photo. I ♥ is so much!
Secondly, know you aren't alone in just trying to figure things out for yourself. I think we all go through that. I don't know you personally but admire all you do as a working mother. Hang in there - it will get better! :)
You are amazing...and this shot is too precious.
I admire you, I think of you often and pray nothing but good things to such a sweet girl.
I spent the last year with no flashing lights but, I followed that dark little road I was on until I found them again. Still at a distance but within reach. (not that you are at a dark road or doing anything bad - i wasn't... just felt lost sometimes as a single mom)
You are wonderful and so loved.
Sweet sweet picture, so precious! Your kids are so blessed to have such an amazing mom in their lives! Somehow things work in such a way that life may lead you somewhere you never thought you would be... and somehow you grow stronger because of it. I heart you!
A girlfriend from PR was on the phone with me while looking at FB pictures that I am tagged in. She saw the pic from your bday party and said "WHO THE HECK ARE YOU WITH IN THIS PIC?" I said she is Brooke a photographer friend she said "OMG I thought it was a movie star she is GORGEOUS"
You are such a beautiful person on the inside and out. You make me want to be that beautiful both inside and out as well. Thank you for sharing yourself!!
love you. xoxo
have you ever tried volunteer work? taking pics for someone (in need) without charging? using your talents for the greater good? it gives life a new meaning and a greater purpose.
I think there's a moment in motherhood for all of us where you see your children the way that God sees them. And you all of a sudden realize that they are depend on you for so much more than just the love that you give. They depend on you for EVERYTHING and you can't help but feel insignificant. It makes you want to be better. Then there are those moments that God lets you know that you're doing ok. Hang in there!
Brook, You have such an amazing talent. Looking at your work pushes me to try harder and expect more out of me. I have a desire to someday maybe be half the talent you are.
Anyway, about your post. I don't know you personally but this how I would bring things back into focus. We all have times in our lives when we approach those "red lights" we don't always do what we should at them. There are times in our lives when we aren't where we want to be or should be. It is part of life and its journey. Just hold to those "basic" tools and values you have been taught if you do this YOU will find your way. Thank you for being so honest with your post.
*sorry about my long winded comment;)
{Jess}
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